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Some Dog (and Horse) Behaviors - Little canine (and equine) affirmative moments

Author: G
Length: 4-7 minutes
Warnings: none

This is something I’ve wanted to write about for awhile but kept overhyping myself, I guess? Trying to figure out the ‘best way’ to record this, like a comic or some fancier essay…but then it occurs to me to just. Write it down. It doesn’t have to be long or super thoughtful! Daily life is just as important to the therian experience as the deeper thinks.

( So, here are some behaviors I attribute to my therianthropy/wolfdog side, as well as some bonus horse fluxtype behaviors when I’m in that mode. )

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I Got Paid!

Rogan: got my money from itch.io, which is a weight off my mind! Whew.

There’s been a big pushback against payment processors for this. We ourself are gearing up to send angry letters. If you want to know more about how/who to call, scripts to follow, and ways to badger payment processors of extralegally deciding what you can buy/sell on the Internet, check out https://yellat.money/ and https://stop-paypros.neocities.org/

These links have stuff for non-Americans too! I imagine you guys are EVEN MADDER about a few American companies saying what you can or can’t buy in your own country! Let’s give ‘em merry hell! It worked for the Australian Biblebangers, let’s see if it works for us!

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A Little Failed(?) Experiment - But at least I learned something

Author: Y
Length: 3-4 minutes
Warnings: Strong language

Sorry if this is all over the place. We attended a weekend con and then got a shitty headache the day after, and I couldn’t write this until we were just about to go to bed again. Worth it for the fun of the con I guess? Anyway.

We have a week to get out a shitton of thoughts before classes start for the fall and then we’re locked away in grad school anxiety again. So here we go.

( I have a confession to make. )

Current Mood: grateful

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charlie in dairyland

Very glad I did my grocery shopping yesterday afternoon!

Evidently, there's been an underground fire downtown - giant kerboom, black smoke pouring from blown manhole covers, power outages - and the epicenter of the mess is riiiiight in the segment of the square and surrounds I tend to frequent. One of the most affected roads is a main stem for me, travel-wise, and a coffee shop I frequent is on a corner that's now in the temporary exclusion zone. Yikes! There but for the grace of God, and my slightly early decision to make a grocery run, go I! Maybe someone benevolent was whispering in my ear yesterday?

I haven't heard of any injuries or above-ground structural damage, thankfully, but there've been road closures and detours all over that area. I suspect at least some of the outages were deliberate power cuts while workers put the fire out. We lost Internet service over here on the near west side, because our service provider is smack in the middle of the mess, but it's now up and rolling again, which is a good sign for folks downtown. Still, though. I could easily have been in the thick of some serious chaos had I gone that direction today, as I often do on the weekends. I actually considered it, but then the Brewer game was on and engaging, and I said... nah. Someone benevolent whispering in my ear indeed.

Anyway. Safe, well, and grateful. If any other Madison folks are reading this, check in, please?

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writing

Pathology

I was making a zine the other day and wrote a phrase that later came up talking to a friend. "I wish people would be willing to engage with me outside of pathology."

People refusing to see differences as anything other than a disease is a problem that I've noticed a lot lately. It was bad enough when I was last around in... somewhere like 2017 or 2018? But now I'm seeing people (especially in online spheres, but increasingly offline too) treat mental illness as a center of identity or absolute truth that everyone can and should be sorted into, as a center to engage with the world through- treating each other as problems to be fixed instead of organic people to learn from, support, and accept. And I really don't like that.

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Compromises are Okay - You cannot do everything perfectly

Author: G
Length: 4-7 minutes
Warnings: discussion of obsessive-compulsive disorder, moral scrupulosity, very brief mention of suicidal thoughts

Moral scrupulosity—especially the kind that fosters guilt—is something I just have to accept will be a lifelong battle. I don’t anticipate ever fully conquering it, just exhaustively revisiting it over and over, hopefully with progressive understanding and less distress.

( One of those things (that I’m sure others in my boat can relate to) is feeling responsible for killing the planet and guilty over using too many resources. )

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What Makes an Erotic Book Cover

Mori: After the end of my real-life bar graphing bacchanalia (lying on the floor, surrounded by books with tits and ass on the cover), I found myself having one of those 1AM conversations with my headmates: what makes a book cover truly EROTIQUE? What is that je nais se quoi and other fancy French words that give it the oomph?

( this is the horny comic book equivalent of a bunch of wine aficionados talking in snooty Boston accents about the fine details of their stale grape juice and how great it is. )

Current Mood: out of sorts

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weekly post

It's Thursday

Hi everyone :) This week's post might be a little different than normal, since I've been feeling a bit out of sorts lately. I did have a good weekend that just passed; it was a long weekend and I spent lots of time with my boyfriend as well as having plenty of time to relax and flop. This weekend, I'm going to a weekend with my boyfriend, which should be fun and my sister is having a get together that I'm really looking forward to. I also get to have lunch with my good friend tomorrow, which is always a nice thing. :)

Everything has felt like a lot lately and I'm not sure how to deal with it. Social interactions seem to take so much effort, my to-do list seems forever long, I have so many things I *want* to do, but I seem to have no energy for anything. I'm finding it hard to budget my time appropriately and switch from one task to another, even if I'm switching between two fun things. I'm not sure where to go from here, but it feels like I need to figure out something, because the status quo is not super great.

Hopefully in the next few days I will have a bit of energy for the small things and everything else will find a way to sort itself out. I hope you all are doing well, talk to you again soon! <3

Current Mood: geeky

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Our Brain On Tufte

Mori: man, what a crummy brain day.

Brain: x_x what will you do to nourish me?

Mori: organize magazines at the sci-fi library, of course! What could be more soul-nurturing than that?!

Brain: you’re right, absolutely nothing!

Mori: man, I can’t help but notice how racy these chainmail bikini babes are and how they’re all over the place, even in nonporny things, while the actual porn we buy these days is way, way tamer in their cover art. These old geeks get to have jiggling nipples everywhere while Rogan can barely buy gay porn comics with a shirtless guy on the cover.

Brain: Hmm... could we make a soul-nurturing activity out of this??? @_@

Mori: I want to go through our entire bookshelf for all the nudity and horny covers and then arrange them into real-life bar graphs charting them by year, content, and couplings.

Brain: HUZZAH! That’s the way to use me! I feel better already!

(And then we made photo graphs and photographs.)

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nom nom,
us:bob

Bob’s Birthday Ice Cream

Bob: my birthday’s in two weeks, and Rogan asked what I wanted. My response? All the food I am not allowed to eat in my old, bad-heart body. Fried food, desserts, fat and sweets and flavors.

Today, he was at the ice cream shop, and one of the specials was Xtabentun coffee ice cream with anise/honey liqueur. Coffee and booze: my favorite combination! (And wasted on these kids; Falcon is the only one in this place who appreciates a decent cup of coffee asides from me.)

I staked my birthday claim early. I got my ice cream. Oh, it was an experience to be savored, for sure! Best ice cream I’ve ever had... and their body can take it no problem.

Happy early birthday to me!

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Made With Purpose

Lately, we have been working through a system census, and Johann’s update on their activities and thoughts was interesting enough to me that I encouraged them to write a little more on the subject for our journal. Please enjoy Johann’s 1,164 word personal essay.
- Gil-Galad

Some people wish they had a definitive life purpose. The world is a place of vast uncertainty; I can see why people would covet the thought of a north star they could use to guide their path. I was born with a single purpose, but I find it provides me little clarity. The path of my life is still halting and uncertain, not least because it is so easy to outgrow a purpose and to find oneself just as lost as anyone else.

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about us: main intro

Welcome!

This journal belongs to a group of 400+ individuals sharing the same body. We are a plural system, which is a concept I imagine you’re already familiar with if you’ve ended up here.

We have been plural as long as any of us can remember, and we have gone from being an exceptionally dysfunctional group to a fairly tightly-knit collective — though we rarely agree on anything, haha.

The journal is currently curated by Ereinion Gil-Galad, who plans to journal as our collective schedule allows, along with posting guest writing from other members of the system.

Some fairly common interests within the system include:

Fiction writing (primarily fantasy, sci-fi, and horror)
Reading (see genres above, though we like to branch out and sample a variety of works)
Cooking and cuisine
Tolkien’s Legendarium
One Piece
Elden Ring
Reading about and discussing plural experiences

( Language and Etiquette )

( About the Curator )

( Other Notable Folk )

( Access Filters (WIP) )

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Somerville Yart Sale (Saturday, Aug. 9)

I made the listing of AllFam invisible except to me and previous buyers. The takedown notice is still publicly accessible, but at least it won't be scaring off any potential customers. (And I've now finally accepted the inevitable and created the "pedojacket" tag so I can have an easy way to track shit like this happening to me.)

In better news, we're going to be a part of the Somerville YART Sale event with Joshua Porterfield! We'll have a table of art, zines, books, and FORBIDDEN OBJECTS in front of 68 Bonair At., Somerville, MA 02145.

Event Date: Saturday, August 9th, 12–6 PM (weather date Sunday, August 10th)
Event Map: https://somervilleartscouncil.org/yart-sale/yart/ (check out more people selling art as yard sales!)
More info anytime at: www.somervilleartscouncil.org/yart-sale

I have also updated my Events Page, which I just realized a lot of people may not know the existence of. (Didn't help that I myself neglected it a lot during the early years of COVID.)

Current Mood: happy

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comfort corner

Comfort Corner

The carpet is thick, soft and cream coloured, while the walls are a yellow bronze colour. In the corner along one wall there is a large sofa, able to seat 4 or 5 people comfortably. Along the other corner wall there is a smaller sofa for 2 or 3 people. In the middle of the furniture, there is a low, round coffee table, perfect for colouring at or for other craft activities.

There is a scratching post and a cat tree for climbing, which are both along the wall opposite the couch. A few fluffy beds have also been put out, in varying sizes, in case any one prefers the floor. There is also a large sturdy perch and a marked off area that says "Landing Pad" in case any winged friends want to visit.

There is now a blue chaise chair in the nook as well, which has been placed near the couch and is good for both sitting and spreading out lengthwise. There are also two armchairs; one an oversized, deep gray leather chair, the other a square fabric armchair in deep blue with light purple swirls on it.

There are two baskets off to the side. One contains fuzzy blankets, a variety of fuzzy and textured pillows, and a collection of stuffed animals while the other contains a variety of art supplies, ranging from colouring pages and blank paper to crayons and coloured pencils, and more besides.

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Humor? I Barely Know Her! Coping differs between system members

Author: E
Length: 4-6 minutes
Warnings: Strong language, mentions of Alzheimer's Disease, 9/11 terrorist attacks, and abuse

There’s a movie we saw some years ago with our biological fam called Here Today. It’s a movie that kinda stuck with us in some ways because G’s got a big fear of the real possibility of getting dementia, and that’s what the entire movie is about: a guy getting that and losing his memory and realizing he is while his life kinda falls apart. Fucking terrifying for them, and I kinda get it, but also I know it’s a waste of time thinking about it while we’re this age. (Movie’s kinda a 5/10 by the way, better to just read the plot summary than watch.)

But anyway. There’s a quote that I like and I remembered it and I put it on my personal page to remember it because I love it that much. I misremembered it but I still like the actual one, even if it’s not as good as the way I remembered it.

The protag’s talking to a doctor about his condition and he’s making jokes about it. He’s a comedian by trade and he loves dark humor. He’s starting to melt down a bit over this situation though. His doctor says, “This is no time for jokes.”

And he gets pissed and responds, “Yes it is! It's the perfect time for jokes, goddamn it. Don't try to take away my sense of humor. I'd rather die right now!”

See, the way I remembered it was, “Yes it is! I’m already losing everything else, don’t take away my sense of humor too!” Like emphasizing all he was losing and about to lose.

( Either way, I agree 1000 fucking percent! )

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Wow, I hate this.

Today I just realized that All in the Family ISN'T just plain invisible or "Error 404" when people reach it. People see the takedown notice and since I very obviously don't do photorealistic art, kinda the only conclusion to draw is that my work is "Content glorifying sexual violence" or "minors, minor-presenting, or suggested minors in a sexual context."

This is incredibly degrading. This might be more humiliating than getting shadowbanned from Gumroad for Cultiples, and that was pretty damn crummy.

I make mental health work about sexual trauma. It's bad for business to have "minors in a sexual context" as code for "child pornography" anywhere near me professionally, even if you ignore that this is, again, a memoir about how incest fucked me up. The whole point is that it's awful! Josie Riesman called it "one of the most brutal and engaging comics I’ve ever read." Tarun Athmika did a whole fucking paper on the politics of implication in (among other things) All in the Family, and how bans of discussion of oppression supports that oppression! Holy shit, he couldn't have been more prescient had he tried!

I've still heard nothing from itch.io. I ordered my payout a week ago and it's still "in review." I don't know if I'm going to get paid. The idea that I might get pedojacketed, AGAIN, for totally nonsense reasons is...

I don't know what it is.

This never used to happen to me until 2023, and now it's becoming normal to me. This is just life to me now. And I feel stupidly naive that it took this long to happen; it feels like it was always going to.

At least I can take comfort that the Banned Book Sale is going well. But god, I would've way rathered never throwing one.

Current Mood: working

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poll

2025 August Fan Poll

Heads up, y'all; on account of having my psychological murder memoir banned as child pornography, I am throwing a Banned Book Sale to help compensate for the loss! Enjoy! And now for the usual poll announcement:

Hey everybody, it's that time again: time to vote for which stuff gets the LiberaPay/Patreon money this month!

As always, anyone can vote (please do!), but LiberaPay and Patreon patrons get double weight for their votes. (Due to Patreon's porn purges, I really encourage you to use LiberaPay, if you get a choice.) If you want to see the blurbs for any of these works, those are here! (You can also leave your requests there; requesting a story or essay is always free!) If you don't have a DW and so can't do the poll, that's okay; just leave your vote in the comments below; anon comments are turned on.

Which works gets the money, and thus posted this month? YOU CHOOSE, readers!

Poll #33450 2025 August Fan Poll

This poll is closed.
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 28

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Did you toss LiberaPay/Patreon money my way last month?

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Yes (my votes count double)
5 (100.0%)

What writing gets posted this month?

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Infinity Smashed: Born Lucky
3 (10.7%)

Reverend Alpert: the Traveling Exorcist
3 (10.7%)

Henchwench for Hire (F/F supervillainy)
2 (7.1%)

Rutless (trans omegaverse porno)
2 (7.1%)

Flights of Reality (the Cursed City)
0 (0.0%)

Anatomy of a Dance (essay)
4 (14.3%)

The Boy Whose Heart Is Home (teen hardship)
5 (17.9%)

The Battleaxe and the Blood-Eater (pseudo Greco-Roman gladiators)
4 (14.3%)

LB Economics (essay)
8 (28.6%)

Cultiples #1 Afterword (essay made of AAAAAAH)
5 (17.9%)

Aphantasia and Headspace (essay)
13 (46.4%)

two apocalyptic micro-stories
1 (3.6%)

What art/comic/zine gets posted this month?

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Cult Comix
5 (18.5%)

Death Watch
5 (18.5%)

How it Was, How It Is
8 (29.6%)

2012 hospital sketchbook
1 (3.7%)

2013 Homeless Year sketchbook
4 (14.8%)

2014 AllFam sketchbook
8 (29.6%)

Blushing and Scent (Mori/Rawlin fluff)
9 (33.3%)

2015 early Biff sketchbook
7 (25.9%)

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goals

July Monthly Review

July was a fun month, although I did feel like I didn't have enough energy for things a lot of the time. I especially notice this with social things, but it also crops up when I have a long list of chores to get done. I think I still did alright on my goals though, so look behind the cut for more details.
( July Goal Review )

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the Hands of a Dozen Strangers: My Experience at a Compassionate Touch Workshop

The Hands of a Dozen Strangers: My Experience at a Compassionate Touch Workshop
Summary: “Loving, consensual touch can be a deliberate religious practice.” —Christine Hoff Kraemer, Eros and Touch from a Pagan Perspective, pg. 122.
Series: Essay
Word Count: 2700
Notes: Winner of the LiberaPay/Patreon fan poll! A lot of these ideas I originally got from Eros and Touch from a Pagan Perspective, especially chapters 1: “Divided for Love’s Sake: An Erotic Cosmology” and 4: “the Sacrament of Touch.” The author has generously uploaded it to archive.org; check it out!

Unsurprisingly to anyone familiar with my history, I (Rogan of LB) have trouble being physically close to people. So what was I doing going to a compassionate touch workshop in a mysterious half-renovated warehouse with a dozen strangers, most of them men? Well, I wanted a change. I wanted to change.

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Current Mood: sore

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weekly post

Weekly Update

This week was a pretty good one. I had lunch with my good friend yesterday, since Friday was not available this week. I also did fairly decently with chores this week; all my dishes got done and I managed to get some weeding done, although I have been avoiding the sun because of my sunburn. I also did my flute practice this week. I played through my Shrek book this time, which was fun but also challenging, since I play those songs this amd they are a little more involved. I had fun trying them though, which is the important part.

I didn't manage to work on any of my secondary goals this week, but I did finish another unit in German. I'm not sure where that compares to my yearly goal, but I will have one more month to finish more unuts if needed. I also chose a different book last night, so I'm going to see if I can get into this one. The one I have started sounds interesting, but it really hasn't caught my eye lately so I'm gonna try switching it up.

I have a few fun weekends coming up and I'm hoping to get the motivation to start working on my other goals again. A co-worker recently said that motivation comes from discipline, but I'm lacking both, so I still don't know where to go from here. It would be nice to work on my puzzle or some of my fibre crafts again.

I hope you are all doing well and you have a great weekend!